“[The disciples] said to [Jesus], ‘Are we to go and buy two hundred denarii worth of bread, and give it to them to eat?’ And [Jesus] said to them, ‘How many loves have you? Go and see.'” (Mark 6:37-38)
How often, it seems, we operate with a script that tells us there just isn’t enough-not enough time, not enough food, not enough money, not enough jobs, not enough alternative sources of energy, maybe even not enough love to conquer the hate, or good to overcome the evil. “How many loaves have you?” Jesus asks the disciples because they hadn’t thought to ask it themselves. God provides an abundance of resources,, yet we focus on that which we lack.
Time management guru Laura Vanderkam advises people who feel like they don’t have enough time in the week to track how they spend 168 hours (seven days) to dispel this myth of “not enough.” You have more time than you think, she writes.
We have enough time. We just need to be honest about how we spend the time we have been given. Tracking exercises help us plan for and prioritize our schedules. Budgeting helps us become more aware of money we have to spend and share. Spiritual practices, such as examine, make conscious the unconscious gifts of abundance we have stored up and could freely bestow.
Examine: In what ways have you been dishonest about your abundance? Sit with this dishonesty. Breathe. Notice thoughts and feelings that arise.
Imagine: Imagine yourself as a disciple being called by Jesus to feed a hungry crowd of people. What resources do you have, or could you call upon, to feed the crowd’s physical, spiritual, or emotional hunger? Be honest with Jesus and yourself in this moment. Let go of every dishonest excuse.
Pray: Free me from dishonesty, O God, so I can live with truth.